I am really concerned about my son. He was home with us these last several days and I am afraid he is becoming resentful with all that is going on. There have been so many changes in these last few weeks and he is a kid who does not like change. He just learned yesterday that he will not be returning to the school that he has gone to for the last six years. He was visibly upset but didn't say much about it. While he was here this week, I split most of my time between my job and his sister. I don't recall doing much of anything with him and I am very sad about that. I am afraid his anger is building up. He is off to his dad's house for a few days and I hope that they will get some quality time together.
I am seeing the story of the Prodigal son in a whole new light, from the perspective of the brother who stayed home and felt unappreciated. My son is not complaining, but I suspect he feels a lot of the same emotions and rightly so. Usually when the story is told, the brother is portrayed as being bad or wrong for feeling resentment and telling his father how he felt. We are made to feel as if we should only feel joy that the prodigal returned and feeling anything else makes us bad people. I'll never look at this story in the same way again.
I realize our best chance for dealing with our resentments, anger and for finding balance is to go to therapy. I've been very lax about finding a family therapist outside of my daughter's treatment. I called several when this all started but none of them were able to see us at that time. I will pick up that search again on Monday.
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